Healing Our Hearts
Expanding beyond grief, loss, and the moments that change us forever.
When you can’t imagine where to begin, just take one step.
The Restart Series
A note from Nikki
I couldn’t fit everything I wanted to share in my recent Tedx Talks so I created three short, personal companion pieces as part of my Restart Series:
They are about healing, expanding, and sharing our hearts even when grief, loss and life’s hardest moments make it feel impossible.
My hope is that something in these conversations help you find your own way forward in whatever way feels right to you.
With love,
Nikki
What if the Unthinkable isn’t the end of the story…but the beginning of a more expansive one?
Then
For more than twenty years, I helped build startup companies. I watched founders bring their visions alive in the face of impossible odds, changing markets, failed plans, and unexpected setbacks. The businesses that survived weren’t the ones with the perfect strategy.
They were the ones willing to adapt, pivot, rebuild and trust what came next.
At the time, I thought I was learning how to build companies. I didn’t realize I was learning how to rebuild a life.
Tommy
In 2018, my 12-year-old son, Tommy, went to sleep one night and never woke up.
Everything changed that day.
Paralyzed by grief, I couldn’t “move on.” But I did need to find a way to live again.
That search led me down a path of curiosity, healing, and eventually profound transformation. I discovered that some things can’t be undone. They can only be carried as we grow forward.
Healing ♡ Expanding ♡ Sharing
My greatest startup wasn’t a company.
It was my own life.
Shared with love
If you are…
grieving someone you love
rebuilding after life changed forever
standing at a crossroads
searching for greater meaning
walking beside someone who is hurting
You’re in the right place.
When we lost Tommy, I wasn’t looking to become someone new. But I could no longer be the person I’d been.
Piece by piece, I gathered the ideas, practices, stories, and conversations that helped me find my footing. They’re here for you now.
Wanna Go Deeper?
My Healing Toolkit
From Meditation to Mushrooms
Newly updated!
When Tommy passed away I was willing to try anything to heal my heart.
Meditation. Therapy. Breathwork. Mushrooms. Books. Science. Spirituality.
The list goes on and on…
Some things helped.
Some things didn’t.
I went off the beaten path, applying the same curiosity and creativity that I’d once used building startup companies to the healing of my own life.
My Healing Toolkit is a collection of the practices, ideas, and resources that have truly changed me. Not because they’ve helped me get my old life back, but because they’ve helped me build a new one.
I recently updated my toolkit with more stories, healing modalities and practitioners because I continue on my entrepreneurial healing journey to not only heal my heart, but expand and share it too.
If you want to learn more, please explore.
Read More, Learn More, Love More
“Nikki Mark’s inspiring debut memoir…is a winner.”
– Publisher’s Weekly
Tommy’s Field
A Story of Love, Loss, and the Goal of a Lifetime
When Tommy unexpectedly passed away in 2018, everything I thought I knew about life changed.
A friend left me a journal among the condolence cards, and I began writing, and never stopped. What started as a way to survive the unimaginable, became the beginning of Tommy’s legacy.
Tommy’s Field is a memoir about navigating grief through purpose, action, play, and a little coaching from beyond.
“This true story of transformation is a gift to a world so desperately in need of healing. May it inspire us to open our minds to the magic of life, death, and the journey in-between.”
Laura Dern, Actor
Play On
TM23 Foundation
Tommy had a rare gift for bringing people together. Through his love of sports, play, and friendship, he created community wherever he went.
After Tommy’s unexpected passing in 2018, his spirit became the inspiration for the TM23 Foundation—a living legacy dedicated to improving neighborhoods and giving children safe places to play, connect, and belong.
To date, the Foundation has raised nearly $4 million and gifted three state-of-the-art athletic fields for the children of Los Angeles – with a fourth in Burkina Faso, Africa. Known as Tommy’s Fields, these spaces are for everyone—a lasting reminder that joy, connection, and community can continue to grow long after a life is gone.
Stories & Reflections
I love sharing unexpected experiences of wonder and magic that have been a big part of my healing process. I often weave the wisdom of healers, books, and other resources into these reflections, not to offer answers, but to deepen the conversation and bridge what I’ve learned from both Eastern and Western approaches to healing.
I still can’t believe all I’m experiencing. I don’t share on a schedule. I share when something calls to me, when it has settled into me, and when it feels right.
